And part 3

Oh and by the way.....Chanel is prego.....*tears* mini cream puffies on the way!

Me and my creampuff

Part 2

I'm excited!!!!

Alexander mcqueen is one of my fave designers of all time! So as I'm cooking some chicken and pasta, and preparing a goodies box to send to Joe who's doing a civilian contractor job in Iraq right now....u can imagine the excitement this ad in harper's bazaar is causing me! Hahaha! I'm going to have to go to the target here, and a couple throughout phoenix to ransack all these items! Word.

The Odyssey = This Desire

I'm going to turn this "odyssey" that is the full 6-12 months of a timeline until THis Desire is fulfilled...into the greatest development of Myself, and what I can give to MY ALL if that's what it might be......it's a risk worth taking because I've already committed myself into giving up any possible occurrence of THIS so that's going to make this possible....because it doesnt matter what the end results are....all I know is that I am going to make it into the greatest and absolutely unforgettable and endlessly desired moment of our lives when it happens.....in 6-12 months......intense indeed. this sums it up: passion,desire,commitment, and absolute pleasure and bliss.....we're going to love it....I'm remixing "the odyssey" into the greatest desire which is my destiny....ooooh lyrical skills....hahaha.

...oh famous quotes on the subject of Desire:.......

Nought's had, all's spent

Where our desire is got without content.

'Tis safer to be that which we destroy

Than, by destruction, dwell in doubtful joy.

WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE, Macbeth

Those who restrain desire, do so because theirs is weak enough to be restrained; and the restrainer or reason usurps its place & governs the unwilling.

WILLIAM BLAKE, The Voice of the Devil

There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart's desire. The other is to gain it.

GEORGE BERNARD SHAW, Man and Superman

Go DJ! That's my dj!

Music is truly what makes me go from loathing and sadness to optimism and tranquility. I can listen to songs that hold emotional attachment to memories or certain persons and can't help but to cry a little (yes I am a sentimental chica.....jus as sentimental as I can be ruthless) and then here comes an awesome little gift of a burnt cd that my a.m. Danny. Made me cos he thought I might like this group (its between deathcab for cutie and maybe even a little Muse...) They r called silversun pickups and I swear that within listening to the first minute I felt so much better like, this is what I needed! I kept listening to all these songs that either reminded me or just had something to do with what made me so sad to begin with. But yea, see if I am going to be able to believe a word ANY guy says to me from now on......um, no. That's just how I was before this....it is what it is. I got to discover some awesome music tho......at least that's something to make up a little bit for how I felt about all of this...... talk about 808 and heartbreak....lol. Oh....yay I'm getting a niiiice tax refund despite the last 3 months of the year being tax exempt on my checks....and I think it's finally time to get back to my old element....getting me some turntables again!!!!! Yezzir!!!! There's nothing like mixing on those babies!! I'll find some bomb speaker moniters and find the mixer I've always wanted...although a part of me wants to get an additional set of the digital turntables.....I have to at least get back to my vinyl for a minute....on collector status....ugh we'll see what ebay has to say about it...lol...*smile*

Listening to: "Little lovers so polite" by silversun pickups
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Playlist #2

My favourite Lil Wayne track ever.............

Artist: Lil' Wayne
Album: Tha Drought 3
Song: Something You Forgot

[Chorus] (Lil' Wayne)
I've been lonely, I've been waiting for you
I'm pretending, and that's all I can do (that's all I can do mama)
The love I'm sending ain't making it through to your heart (I hope you hear me)

[Lil' Wayne]
Pain, since I've lost you, I'm lost too
Nigga feelin' like he at the bottom like a horse shoe
Sorry for the trouble that I put you and your heart through
God knows that I'd do anything for a part two, or to
be prayin' for the day you come back to me, sayin' that you forgive me
Give me another chance, I'm needin' it like a kidney
I don't wanna advance, give me back her hands
Give me back her touch, I don't ask for much
but I fucked up, I know I fucked up, I admit I fucked up
but everybody fuck up, now this other nigga lucked up
Tellin' me and my clique don't give a fuck
Cause um, we from New Orleans, she was from Georgia
She was my down chick, I was her soldier
I was her gangsta, she was my shoulder
You were the pistol to my holster .. BANG!

[Chorus] (Lil' Wayne)
You've been hiding, never letting it show
Always trying, to keep it under control (I see you hidin' it mama)
You got it down, and your well on your way to the top (keep doin' your thing)
but there is something you forgot

[Lil' Wayne]
You forgot about the house, you forgot about the ring
I remember everything, I just wanna hear you sing
I remember the love, right after the fights
You can't tell me you don't remember those nights
and if I would cry, then you would cry twice
To me you are the brightest star under sunlight
See take away my title, take away my stripes
You give me back my girl and you give me back my life
Give me back my girl and you give me back my life
See this is just a nightmare, so I blink twice
Open up my eyes hopin' she'd be in my sight
I remember the time, I wish I could bring it back
What she mean to me, is what I mean to rap (what I mean to rap)

[Chorus] (Lil' Wayne)
You've been hiding, (y'know) never letting it show
Always trying (I see you hidin' it mama)
to keep it under control (but I know you know)
You got it down (I know you do)

and your well on your way to the top
(but I wish you and yours nothin' but happiness shawty)

[Verse 3:]
But I hope you haven't forgot about me up in the livin' room watchin' Sports Center
You were cookin' dinner, I was such a sinner, but the Lord is a forgiver
You know they say if you pray then you can get your blessings ordered and delivered
and your boyfriend is not like me
Ma you even went and got a teardrop like me
I remember we would sit at home all day
You called me "Butta", I called you "Babe"
My momma asked about you, my partners did too
I know your daughter will be so amazin' like you
and I know you probably wish you never met me, and I just wish you never forget me
and let me say, please don't worry 'bout the women I have been with
No engagement can amount to your friendship
and I hope that nigga know he got a queen, and all I can do is dream .. DAMN!

[Chorus]
I've been lonely, I've been waiting for you
I'm pretending, and that's all I can do
The love I'm sending ain't making it through to your heart