Como la serenidad

Arullo-
by cafe tacvba

Arullo que dura la vida
Tu sino me persignas
Entre el amor y el dolor
Llego la hora de la despedida. Arullo que juega con brisa
La musica es tu sonrisa
Mi alimento, tu pecho tu vida un instante una luz la partida.

Te veo y espero
Que cruces sin dolor
Y en paz nos dejes atras
Te quiero y deseo
Que tu alma vuelva alla
A ser una estrella.

Ya llego la nave que te llevará Cruzaste ya el valle
De lagrimas el mar
Cuantas veces tu me cruzaste?
Y el sueño me arropó
Hay que acompañarte
Hoy te arrullaré yo.

Feelin like: I won't b able to trust a man fully, ever

Listenin to: after this song, "no hay nadie como tu" by cafe tacvba and calle 13

Someone stole my candy

well my yummy candy corn at work....grrr...lol...Fun Halloween> I had fun, and although the cowboys are soooo NOT MY TEAM, I couldn't hate on the cowboy cheerleader uniforms....so that was my costume, and I had maad fun rockin it.....word.

listening to : "No hay nadie como tu" by Calle 13 feat. Cafe Tacvba

Charlie Hunnam

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm

Can't wait

For this new joint. Com keeps getting better and better and better..........

While the whole world waits

For the storm.....I'm sticking to the blackberry niagra. I just can't do touchscreen anymore

Mmmmm again

I like their men's collection more than the women's. There's just something about them.....

Mmmmm.....

I love burberry's watches

Let's look at time

Ooh burberry

Fuck the guns

Its time to get up on some lasers. Right right? Lol that would b the daaaay!
Listening to: "macaframa" by Xrated.....

and then, it just didn't affect me anymore....I finally managed to only care about what I want....and only.

feeling: like everything just feels blissful and sweet because I jus finally stopped caring about what anyone besides myself thinks.....I waited too long for all the wrong things, when all I got was unappreciation and indecisiveness about how someone would want to have me in their life? .......after I felt so much and hoped for what?.....yea, attention is not expensive at all.....and I jus know when to stop trying and hoping when I shouldn't b doing that to begin with. Just enjoy yourselves. That's the only way that u can get through life after getting heartbroken and dissapointed......just take things as they go....maybe it will stay maybe it won't...just enjoy it....be passionate when it counts.....otherwise, its just met with dissapointment. Word. Its like I was finally able to put myself in their shoes....and realized that its a lot easier to just go with the flow and not dig deep into anything....because when its really going to b worth it, this whole "icebox" feeling will mos def b dissolved. It is what it is. Yet it feels so rejuvinating.....oh yes it does.

Its almost time

Old school artwork......excited for the new 007 release though. The daniel craig films are hands down the best bond portrayal since connery. When I first began to read the original fleming book series back in jr. High, did I find myself discontent with picturing pierce brosnan as the 007 that fleming wrote about. Those novels were intense, detailed and graphic.....I was very pleased to finally see justice done with casino royale. ...so in other words, go pick up one of the fleming novels!!!! word!

List of daily things I do on my curve...

1. Listen to music via my stereo bluetooth headset
2. Blog on my blogger
3. Check MySpace
4. Read Kanye's Blog and other blogs on my hip hop blog list
5. Wiki everything
6. Calendar events
7. Blackberry I'm with my skeezies
8. Take pictures and send em to my blogs.
9. Download pix from deviantart.com
10. Download ringtones for free (I'm up to 184 tones...why? Eh why not)
11. Look up lyrics.
12. Match.com
13. Facebook with my sis
14. Tether it to my pc...yeyuh

Go get a blackberry suckas!!!!

Listening to: "paint the perfect picture" by G & E

I want it I want it!!!!

I love these chanel heels. In case you can't see it, its a pistol as a heel.

Oh Nia....

I love it

I will not apologize

For who I am now. I am not the chica I was b4 I got involved for the last time with the mistake named Luis, I am not the chica I was b4 I met the other mike and started making plans to move to vegas, I am not the chica that I was right after Ernie broke my heart last year......I am the chica that has taken all that and EVOLVED into the beautiful and mastermind of a woman I am now. And its so perfect in an inperfect way. No one can stop me now. I have plans, I have ways to make it all happen. I will not apologize for the way I might make u feel, good or bad....its just the result of being me and what I do to you.

Marco and Me!

Aww my friend and I at Diana's house

My next tattoo

Is this deflated heart. The only colored tattoo that I will get.

Second serving

Scorpio - Your Main Characteristics •
House: Eighth•
Gemstone: Topaz•
New age stone: Obsidian, amber•
Color: Black, burgandy• Opposite sign: Taurus•
Least Compatible with: Aries, Gemini•
Ruling Planet : Pluto-
Modern(Mars-Traditional)• Element: Water•
Anatomy ruled: Reproductive system•
Flower: Chrysanthemum•
Most compatible with: Cancer, Pisces and Scorpio•
Your tarot card: XIII Death• Usually: Passionate, dynamic, sensual and probing.•
Can be: Vindictive, moody, jealous and sadistic

And now a word from our sponsor......

Since I absolutey enjoy and appreciate being a scorpio to the fullest in every sense....I had to share......

~Traditional Scorpion Traits~     ~Likes and Dislikes~ Positive: Determined and forcefulEmotional and intuitivePowerful and passionateExciting and magnetic
Likes 
Truth Hidden Causes Being involved
Work That is Meaningful
Being Persuasive

Negative:
Jealous and resentful
Compulsive and obsessive
Secretive and obstinate

Dislikes 
Being Given Only Surface data Taken Advantage of
Demeaning Jobs
Shallow Relationships
Flattery and Flattering  

~Something about Scorpions:~ • Scorpios are characterized as being very intuitive, courageous, resourceful, resentful, stubborn, sarcastic, and vindictive. They like work that requires intense concentration and effort. They love to solve mysteries. They work well with underground or underwater endeavors. They can be surgeons, scientists, archeologists.  • Scorpio is a very powerful, FIXED, water sign ruled by Pluto. Scorpio have very definite opinions, and usually no amount of persuasion will make them change their minds.  • They are capable of great sacrifice for those they love.  • Since their unconscious mind is more active than their conscious mind, criticism makes them lose all sense of judgment. They can react with sarcasm and silence. Holding grudges and being vindictive is the greatest trait a Scorpio needs to overcome.  • Most people think of Scorpio as the sex symbol, and most are highly sexed. It would be better to say they are intense in whatever they do. Scorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them will recognize the watchfulness that is part of their character. They need great self-discipline, because they are able to recognize the qualities in themselves that make them different from other humans, and to know their utterly conventional natures can be used for great good, or great evil. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. Their sensitivity, together with a propensity for extreme likes and dislikes make them easily hurt, quick to detect insult or injury to themselves (often when none is intended) and easily aroused to ferocious anger. This may express itself in such destructive speech or action that they make lifelong enemies by their outspokenness, for they find it difficult not to be overly critical of anything or anyone to whom they take a dislike.They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous. Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency.They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average. They have a better chance of becoming geniuses than the natives of any other sign.But charismatic "twice-born" characters such as they can sink into the extremes of depravity if they take the wrong path, and the intensity of their nature exaggerates their harmful tendencies into vices far greater than the normal. Rebelliousness against all conventions, political extremism to the point where hatred of the Establishment makes them utterly unscrupulous terrorists. Brooding resentment, aggressive and sadistic brutality, total arrogance, morbid jealousy, extreme volatility of temperament, these are some of their vices. At the other extreme is the procrastinator, the man or woman who is capable of so much that they do nothing and become indolent and self-indulgent, requiring extravagant praise and flattery from those whom they make their cronies.Being so gifted, they can find fulfillment in many employments. Their inner intensity can result in the ice-cold self-control and detachment of the surgeon, the concentration of the research scientist, and the heroism of the soldier. Any profession in which analysis, investigation, research, dealing with practicalities, and the solving of mysteries are relevant, can appeal to them. So police and detective work, espionage and counterespionage, the law, physics or psychology may attract them, and they can become masters of the written and spoken word. They may be most persuasive orators and find fulfillment as diplomats or preachers and, if they make the Church their profession, their inner intensity can express itself in the spiritual fervor of the mystic or the thaumaturgy.Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an "outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace.". Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. They are thus capable of the greatest heights of passionate transport, but debauchery and perversion are always dangers, and Scorpios can become sadistic monsters of sensuality and eroticism. Their feelings are so intense that even when their love is of the highest, and most idealistic kind, they are nevertheless frequently protagonists in tragic, even violent romances, "star-crossed lovers".

.....This was a first, kinda, in a scorpio analysis. In my behalf, its on point. I'm an extremist that is yet to find a healthy balance....better yet, refuses to have a middle ground because honestly, my intensity is one of my greatest elements. Life would not be as desireable without it. A definite blessing. There isn't a greater mention on the tremendous level of energy that we give in everything that is Love. I live for love. Like no other. Well anyway.....this reminds me, my birthday is a month and 3days away!!!! Yay. This year is thirsty for celebration, to say the least.....

Lyrically speaking pt. II

Artist: Beyoncé
Album: Dangerously in Love
Title: Me, Myself & I
I can't believe i believed Everything we had would last
So young and naive for me to think She was from your past
Silly of me to dream of One day having your kids
Love is so blind It feels right when it's wrong
I can't believe i fell for your schemes
I'm smarter than that
So young and naive to believe that with me You're a changed man
Foolish of me to compete
When you cheat with loose women
It took me some time but now i moved on
Cuz i realized i got Me myself and I
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now onI'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and I
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on I'm gonna be my own best friend

So controlling , you said that you love me But you don't
Your family told me one day
I would see it on my own
Next thing i know i'm dealing With your three kids in my home
Love is so blind It feels right when it's wrong

Now that it's over
Stop calling me
Come pick up your clothes
Ain't no need to front like you're still with me
All your homies know
Even your very best friend Tried to warn me on the low
It took me some time
But now i am strong

Because i realized i got Me myself and I
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on I'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and I
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on I'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and I
I know that i will never disappoint myself
I must have cried a thousand times
All the ladies if you feel me
Help me sing it now

I can't regret all the times spent with you
Ya, you hurt me
But i learned a lot along the way
After all the rain
You'll see the sun come out again (yeaaaaaaaaah)
I know that i will never disappoint myself(ooooooo)
I got Me myself and I
I know that i will never disappoint myself
I must have cried a thousand times
All the ladies if you feel me Help me sing it now
I can't regret all the times spent with you
Ya, you hurt me
But i learned a lot along the way
After all the rain
You'll see the sun come out again

I know that i will never disappoint myself

Lyrically speaking

"The way that I love you"

Now after all of this time that we triedI found out we were living a lieThat after all of this love that we madeI know now You don't love me the sameThe way that I loveThe way that I love youThe way that I love The way that I love youThe way that I love The way that I love youI woke up kinda early todayAnd something told me from that momentIt wouldn't be the sameI felt like you were hiding somethingBut I didn't push itI didn't complain or say nuthin'I tried to act, Like I didn't see itCause deep down I knew I didn't want to believe itBut There it was, it was you and herYou left your sidekick on the nightstandAnd I readEverything you did, and everything you said And now I'm standing here looking like damn..I thought it was you and INow I all I got to say is why?After all of this time that we triedI found out we were living a lieAnd after all of this love that we madeI know now you don't love me the sameThe way that I love The way that I love youThe way that I love The way that I love youThe way that I love The way that I love youI notice now, that when i'm aroundYou be trying to lock the doorWhispering on the phoneNow wait a minute since we been in this houseYou ain't never did this beforeTell me what's this about?I tried to sit and say to myselfThis here is too good he don't want nothing elseBut There it was, it was you and herYou left your credit card receipt inside the beamer babeEverything you bought her, and everything you spendingNow I'm standing here once againI thought it was you and INow I all I have to say is why?After all of this time that we triedI found out we were living a lieAnd after all of this love that we madeI know now you don't love me the sameThe way that I love The way that I love youThe way that I love The way that I love youThe way that I love The way that I love youoooo ohh oooou lied u lied u lied oh why oh why y yyeah whyd u have to lie to mewhyd u have to lie to mewhyd u have to lie to me whyyyyyyafter all tis time tht we tried(why why why)i found out we were livin a lie(u lied u lied u lied) and after all this luv tht we made(we made we made we made)i kno now u dont luv me the samethe way tht i luvthe way tht i luv youthe way th i luv youuuuu

I'm still So much more

Than you're used to.yeah, sheer happiness in being me and loving everything about it. Like I said, its such a "Me,Myself, and I" moment. Word to beyonce.

my Me, Myself and I moment

fuck this!

I can't believe he broke my heart again. He started talking to his tweaker ass ex girlfriend who is by the way still on meth right now and he's jus playing me along. I gave it my all.I wanted nothing more than him in my life. He got upset when I told him that I could feel that he wasn't paying attention to me like he was distracted and it was all true. All I have is love for him and I believe so much in him and this is what happens? I told him I was vulnerable around him cos I trust him and this is what he does with my trust. Completely breaks my heart. Telling me he wants to marry me and have kids with me and I believed him. Now I'm sure he is all involved with that female who I know very well and I know the people that she knows or associates with even where she's at now and what she is up to and I'm sure she is playing him with lies cos I know who she is with now. He wants her and that's what it is I'm sure. He never made it about us. Just great.

With You

Because u will always have my heart.

Lauryn Hill - I Gotta Find Peace of Mind [MTV Unplugged]

As detailed as it can get with how I feel about him. My heart.

work in progress

um yea, about that.....

So I have no regret about my last posting....however, I do have a better realization now about where I stand regarding that.More like a wake up call sooner than later. Nothing bad...just something thàt now gives me more clarity on how he feels and that gives me a better perspective on everything including how to handle things....its bittersweet. I love him more than anything and I knew that us being together was going to be nothing easy. Especially with the distance between us.which can be either a blessing or a curse....I'm hoping blessing since he needs his space right now to do what he needs to do....and that gives me my own space to have to just keep on with everything that I do and keeps me happy with myslef. So its not what I thought it would be, but it doesn't necessarily take my optism away.

love like luis

My soulmate and I are together for once and for all.For everything I always dreamed of with what a love like him would be....so here we are. This is the all in moment that we both would only involve ourselves in when we knew that there was nothing else that we were more sure of than us. And its definitely going to be everything that its worth being...in all senses. It's that true love that is everything but easy but can never be duplicated or forgotten. Having Luis in my life like this is already stimulating all my creative senses like it has always done since we met 4 years ago. Its the most electrifying connection that I've ever had.I have journals filled with every emotion ever felt in the course of our involvement...there's just so much more than I can ever try to explain which is how I now find myself being able to express again ....like this. Its just that I've also lived and learned so much more about everything especially about my love and heart's desire which is not the least bit at ease to trust again. I'm all in. With Luis its worth it all. No matter what it ends in...I've never loved someone as much as him...and now that I love myself more than anything...its a challenge that is really going to change my life. Its either going to be all or nothing. I've already had changes of heart with some issues that I swore I would not shift. But its all part of what my love like him are all about. Still.

Come so far.......

 
 


Got so far to go.

I love him.
He loves me.Together we're invincible.....


listening to:    Muse 

VEGAS

Daft Punk - Something About Us

The Lyrics.

Nothing like Dilla

In tribute 2 My Favourite PRODUCER of all time AND the One and Only Beat Creating Mastermind 2 define and EVOLVE tru HIP HOP.

    J Dilla Changed My Life.
 

In Transition

Title: Unintended
 by Muse

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
They could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

Take it slow

Artist: Feist
Album: The Reminder
Title: My Moon My Man

My moon, my man's a changeable land
Such a loveable land to me
My care, my co-lead barber I know
There's nowhere to go but on

How honestly my beggar should be
The song's out of key again
My fools, my things
We're digging the things
If the candlelit page again

Take it slow
Take it easy on me
Shed some light
Shed some light on things
Take it slow
Take it easy on me
Shed some light
Shed some light on things

My moon and me
Not skirty swift bean
It's the dirtiest clean I know
My care, my co-lead barber I know
There's nowhere to go
There's nowhere to go

Take it slow
Take it easy on me
Shed some light
Shed some light on things
Take it slow
Take it easy on me
Shed some light
Shed some light on it please

My moon
The moon my man
My moon
The moon my man...

All I Ask.....

$1 not $2 tips at open bar
keep it that way
there's nothing wrong with partying
keeps the drinks going

who's that?
is that your girl? you with her
she looks like everyone else here

c'mon
they're not like me
(that's a shame)
baby they're not like me
and anyway you know it's not easy
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no


c'mon it's not like me
and anyway you know they're not like me (so what's up)
and baby you know it's not easy (uh huh)
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no (got a light y'all?)

pardon my composure
saw ya
had to approach ya, move closer
confidence or the courtesy of the mamosas framed perfect
like a picture with the sharpest image
from the lips of a cherub cherry red
henny breth
let me guess

queens is ur area
see jean can read by the lean
and the tilt of the cap in your drink, I'll be filling that
I need some good conversation
love
these hood rats be making up the game
plus they ain't even fully developed
insane

see if we could start a challenge
and balance most delicate matters
involving plans
including sitting in carriages
wait
too far
maybe we could shoot a little hoop
or just chill on my stoop
I don't like a lot of hoop-la

me and you sedude deuces and spike juices
and stove some backwards roll backwards
and keep it that good
so write your name
oldschool
pen on the back
there was a good time tomorrow
I don't stall
Holla Back

C'mon it's not like me
and anyway you know they're not like me (so what's up)
and baby you know it's not easy (uh huh)
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no (got a light y'all?)


You see I walk up different on em
Talk slang often
Bought dinner on dutch
while most women do the wallet clutch

Never ask the wrong question
Make jokes interestin
Wear more clothes and let their eyes do the undressin
A little sarcasm and tar
Argue about reasonable doubt and Illmatic
Car traffic iron
We can walk in summer laughing
Cry when they giggle
splitsizing and curse
the magic that's in between us boy

Jean a fiend for the love-feeling
we crush dreamin and after lush green
and a sun shinin and enough beach for a lifetime
or maybe that's just mine

poppin in at hathaway
wandering gay and rewind
play a little chess strip
see but nothing
I read a lot
beam you a little sixteen or something
I cook well
sip on drinks and just chill
a malt liquor and MOP
tell me what you feel

C'mon it's not like me
and anyway you know they're not like me (so what's up)
and baby you know it's not easy (uh huh)
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no (got a light y'all?)

See we could be for life even
for nights freed and heavy and steaming
from polite greetins to late at night face smashin
taste passion and race plays baggage
my faith placed back in maybe marriage
I hate slackers
Jean love the chillin
leg out, sometimes stick out

We'll find an open bar
I'm not impressed by payouts or starters
Play out your cards
We can splay out on the top of cars
And pick the constallations
While playing the Best of Debarge

Making me not agreein
Patience is all I'm needing
Face it, I'm not your average girl
Or close to it even
Most original and trance like a physical stance
I've got a lot
but we could chill
It's all I ask

Are You DOWN?

  "Not Like Me" from Jean Grae's   'This Week' album.

Life thru video part 1.

 The I want You Phase

He asked me

  
    He wrote me, and asked me to give him my heart, my all as he wanted nothing more in this world than to give me his in return. I have been waiting since the day that we met, May 21st 2004, to hear those words from him. I just never really thought it would happen.Now that it has.....it's a mixture of emotions. I have been so cold and emotionless since Ernie and is it possible that this might be what changes that? I love Luis with all my heart, I always have.Where he is at though, I can't hold against him to why I should or shouldn't...it's more the where he will be once he leaves that place. One thing is mail correspondence which is always full of optimism, romance and well wishing. He says that he has finally grown up to where he knows that this is the moment that he believes is the one meant for Us finally. Come August, I will be able to find a more solid understanding of where this will lead. One thing that I have learned, and thanks to Ernie, is to have my expectations and standards set. And never settle for less. I have informed Luis of this as well. So like I said, only time and his choices and actions will tell. This is definitely something that was truly unexpected, to say the least. But then again, it always is when it comes to this.

The One in the middle

 

  

my Heart

Back To Black

Part 2. At least this time, I didnt let it get me like that. I'm not emotinally available, and I'm grateful 4 it.

Artist: Amy Winehouse
Album: Back to Black
Title: Back to Black

He left no time to regret
Kept his dick wet
With his same old safe bet
Me and my head high
And my tears dry
Get on without my guy
You went back to what you knew
So far removed from all that we went through
And I tread a troubled track
My odds are stacked
I'll go back to black

We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to.....

I go back to us

I love you much
It's not enough
You love blow and I love puff
And life is like a pipe
And I'm a tiny penny rolling up the walls inside

We only said goodbye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to

Black, black, black, black, black, black, black,
I go back to
I go back to

We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to


We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to black

The Game is not on that level -UPDATED

So I was doing some random music news browsing and I found this on mtvnews.com. I couldnt help it but to speak on it. The Game spent a week in county jail and upon his eeeeearly release, he hit the studio and compared that feeling to what Pac went through when Suge Bailed him out of state prison after 11 months of incarceration (for some bullshit that we all know was completely overdone and unnecesary regarding the verdict.) and went right into the studio and pretty much remained there for the last months of his life.They even stated that Pac recorded "California Love" that same night he was released when according to his book Ressurrection, he actually wrote and recorded "Ambitionz Az a Ridah" the same afternoon that he came back to Cali with Suge once he got out.
 Alright, I'm sure there's hundreds that have all had a similar experience as to what Pac went through when 
he was released because that's just what happens, you get released from incarceration. It's the BEST DAMN feeling in the world if you have found urself to be in that spot. I have and the first thing I did when I got released after the last part of my 90 with 60 actual served sentence back in '05 was bump some Pac and just thank God that I was breathing fresh outdoor air. But dude, for The Game to compare his 8 day stint for what I think was just his still immature and arrogant antics of pulling out a gun during a game of basketball on a park court and threatening to kill some dude......to what actually went on with Pac and him actually doing 11 months in a state prison in NY for something that was just too vague to actually believe but due to his public role and stature at the time with his music and views on the government, yea I think he was set up and shipped out for a min to

better benefit the government than that broad that accused his friends and him of sexual abuse. Anyway, Game got let off easily for what he was  for damn sure guilty of doing, and manages to publicly compare himself to Pac. Never on that level. He's Wescoast yea he is, but that's all he is, a rapper. He's not an MC, he's not a poet, he's not Pac, or even close on that remarkable human being to exist level. It's just one of those things that he should have kept to himself. 
don't make it a publisized moment where you compare yourself  to something that is not meant to be in your reach honestly. The Game has good tracks, mainly thanks to the Dr., but he has yet to actually evolve into something greater than just some dude that went through typical shit living in Compton and has recorded some albums that only depict that lifestyle that honestly, does not translate on that almost universal yet very personal level that Pac's music did. I think Game has everything in his reach to make Great things of not just himself, but in hip hop. He needs to evolve from rap. And stop comparing himself to Pac. Nobody in this lifetime will be even close to what Pac still is. Alright I'm done. I just couldnt help but 2 express a feeling right....lates. oh yea, here's the article.


Mar 18 2008 5:15 PM EDT
Game Headed Straight To Studio After Leaving Jail To Make 'Inspirational' Track, 'Big Dreams,' With Cool & Dre

'It's like when 'Pac came outta prison and did 'California Love' that same night,' Dre says.
By Jayson Rodriguez
The Game wasted no time getting to the studio after his exit from prison last week.
On Wednesday night, the California rapper recorded the Cool & Dre-produced "Big Dreams," the first single from his upcoming album, L.A.X., due in June. By the weekend, the track was mixed and leaked to the Web.
"Right now, he's like 'Pac," Dre told MTV News the day after the track was recorded. "It's like when 'Pac came outta prison and did 'California Love' that same night.
"Lyrically, he's somewhere else right now," the producer added.
On the pulsating number, Game's forceful flow and sharp tongue attack the beat.
"Irv Gotti know I'mma murderer/ Half of the n---as beefing with me I never heard of them/ If I was the old me I would murder them/ Matter fact, if I was the old me, I would Curtis them," he spits.
Dre said he and Cool managed to work on two other tracks, "Make the World Go 'Round" and "Red Magic," during their session.
"When he was going to jail ... he said he didn't know how long he's gonna be going in for," Dre explained. "But he was like, 'When I come out, I'm ready to go.' So the day he got out, we got the phone call, like, 'Yo, come to L.A. right now.' So me and Cool jumped on the plane."
Game ended up doing only eight days of a scheduled 60-day jail sentence. The rapper was released March 9 from the Twin Towers Correctional Facility in California due to overpopulation. He was jailed because of an incident last year when the rapper threatened another man during a pickup basketball game and was found to have a firearm in a school zone.
His attorney confirmed his release to several media outlets, but his management camp issued a statement claiming the rapper had instead been transferred to another facility. A representative with the prison confirmed Game's release to MTV News.


  update 3/25/008 4:25pm
  I had read this article in XXL years ago when the issue celebrated Pac's "ALL EYEZ ON ME" album's anniverssary. They interviewed the key roles in the making of that album like Daz, Kurupt, Johnny J, Nate Dogg, Richie Rich and other producers that witnessed the makings and had them do commentary for every track. This is what they said about "Ambitonz as a ridah...."
 
"Ambitionz Az A Ridah" Produced by Dat Nigga Daz

Kurupt: First day he came home, "Ambitionz Az A Ridah"-that was the first record that he did. Suge brought him in. The word went through the office that 'Pac was home. Everybody [who was] at the studio at that time was up there. I came a little bit later, and when i came, Daz already had the beat started. 'Pac wasn't in the studio for any more than 45 minutes before he had his first verse done and laid. that fast. He didn't even wanna chill; all he wanted to do was get on the mic. Whatever day he landed in Los Angeles, two hours after he landed, he had his first verse laid.

Dave Aron: That's the first song I ever did with 2pac. The day he got out of jail, he didn't go to the clubs. He didn't go try to meet women. He went straight to the studio like he was on a mission, and he recorded "Ambitionz Az A Ridah" and "I ain't Mad At Cha." 2pac came in, and he was fresh out of jail. I seen them give him his Death Row Medallion that same night. And then he came right in. He was ready to go. He was very hyped, very focused, a lot of energy-mad energy. And you could tell he was really one a mission. He really had a real vision of what was going on, and he wanted to get a lot done in that short amount of time.

Daz: The idea came from the me sampling Pee Wee Herman. So if you listen to Pee Wee Herman [the Champs' "Tequila"], I just put the gangsta twist on it. I gave it to 'Pac. Came back to the studio, and it was done.

A little more now

listening to: "Falling away with you" by Muse

Cant trust it anymore

This heart of mine just cant be trusted anymore. I've pretty much sealed off any entry into my heart. And who knows when that will come to change. Not to quote Danity Kane, but the last relationship I was in did leave me damaged, as well as the expectations that I have not just with a relationship but with the man I choose to be in it. It's not like Ernie was the best thing ever, but he was the closest to what I've always wanted in all aspects. The intensity of the entire thing is what ruined me. Passion overtook me when I really didn't expect it to. Now I'm just on autopilot when it comes to romance. If there is an opportunity, I just don't see it. The guys who have tried to approach me have pretty much not been taken seriously from the jump off. I've been iceboxing it this whole time to avoid getting into something that will just result in heartbreak I guess. Luis has been writing me from prison and has actually stated that he would want to pursue something with me upon his release in August. finally. wow though. Had this been 2006 I might have felt..something. but when I read that letter I just shook my head. My love for him is so much different now. Not at all like it was back then. And it cant be like that ever again. I don't know if to truly trust Rudy with long term plans time because we are so far from each other. But he's in my heart sometimes.  The only person that I've actually spent time with lately and actually gotten to know somewhat on a better level is Paul, who is the complete opposite of Ernie and is just a genuine sweetheart. from what I've seen in this last week that we've been around each other. There's that little part of me that wants to trust it just a little, give it a little bit of faith even......but then the majority goes with the reality, 'don't do it. Just enjoy what it is. because that's probably all it is and will be.' so that way i don't disappoint myself in any way. I don't really think that I win in any situation though.  I'm a hopeless romantic that thrives off of love. And for the last 6 months, it's been an icebox with it. I just won't allow myself to trust it. What's going to change it I think just really relay's on who. Or who I would want it to be. That's where it gets complicated.
listening to:   "unravel" by Bjork