Wish I would have read this early

SCORPIO- 4/13/10 If you woke up on the wrong side of the bed today, you do have a choice about how you will manage the rest of the day. Waking up in a grumpy mood doesn't mean you have to have a bad day. If you are irritable, set aside a few moments in the morning if possible, and just sit and breathe deeply and concentrate on changing your attitude. You can have a wonderful day if you give it a chance. Later in the day joyful happenings are in store, if you've accomplished a positive change to your frame of mind.
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Yeah I had a SUPER ANGRY day from the start. If it's one emotion I hate to have , it's gotta be anger. I've previously allowed anger to drive me to self destructiveness. It's my favorite emotion for "fuck the world" activities. And I always know I'm in charge of my emotions for one. So it's frustrating when I still let it get to me and become irritated with the little things or in the recent case, the things at my work. I still think I should try and talk to a therapist so I can get some things out. Things I wouldn't even want to share with anyone not even my other half. That's one Scorpio trait I can't change. But I do like getting an outside feedback on stuff from time to time. Oh and maybe a combination of Yoga and kick boxing classes should do the trick. That, however, would reduce the time I spend with my love and at home by a lot! I think it's worth sacrificing sometimes though.
Especially in a case like this. Time to sign up.

What to do

I have a confession to make. I'm simply not happy with the job that I have. I do however, have far too many financial dependences that keep me tied to this. Including a car loan that is far too much for anyone living outside of free housing. I seriously just want to cry out of frustration sometimes. I chose to be here. I want to be with the man that I love. But I am sacrificing my happiness with what I do every day as a job. This is such a catch 22. There's not much of a way out. Although if I continue to feel like I'm stuck, I won't be making it better. And to find a decent job that will pay anything close to what I make now is beyond hard to find. Because I've been looking. It's like "what have I done?" But only because on days like this I let it over shadow what is truly my happiness: Life with Him. Yeah.