Tuesday, November 30, 2010

when missing NorCal, and Xmas....



you get the Winchester Mystery Gingerbread house :) Thank you mentalfloss.com

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Just the way I would like it

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

No makeup, all crazy

Monday, November 15, 2010

Funny little things that I stopped doing ( or started doing) since I moved to Texas

1. Stopped wearing clothing that might just be, too short.

2. Started enjoying the company of just one person....my boyfriend. as much as possible.

3. Started to manage my finances, just a little better. kinda.

4. Started to make plans that are always conciderate of my man. is this called being unselfish?

5. Started to appreciate country music a little bit more.

6. Begin to love Indie rock and electro over hip hop. for now.

7. Stopped drinking as much. I have yet to be RRRRunk.

8. Stopped being sneaky.

9. Stopped being so emotional.

10. Started to watch what I eat :\

11. Started to appreciate my family.

12. Stopped caring about a social life, as much.

13. Started being WAY more agressive, and never passive, especially in my relationship.

14. Started loving life that includes a variety of animals..mainly dogs, but not limited to bunnies, chicks, ducks and miniture roosters.

15. Started to become, RESPONSIBLE.

16. Stopped sleeping so much.

17. Started loving better. hahaha.

18. Started to appreciate the differences between Him and I, instead of resenting them.

19. priorities priorities priorities.

20. Started having the best sex of my life. YEAH!!!!

Things I want to do...like right now

like a typical female, i want many things. Like at the same time, kinda.

1. Go get lost for a few days in NorCal

2. Shopping spree, for Me.

3. Hit the Gym, hardcore style

4. Play with my little dog Jimbo, who is by far the coolest dog ever.

5. Hang out and play drinking games at Jon's or Alex's house with JAMAJ. ALL of JAMAJ.

6. Go out dancing. Since he doesnt want to, then with my friends,..like JAMAJ

7. Go to my mom's house in Yuma, AZ and just hang out.

8. Tell every customer in this place to FUCK OFF

9. Go to Vegas. like Crazy in vegas...may of 08 style.

10. Watch the Living Legends perform live in santa Cruz. I miss them.

11. make out with my hot boyfriend. Damn it he's hot!

12. Take a Nap.

Where was I at when I was 20?

2003 -yeah just 7 years ago, (7! wtf) but where the hell was I and who the hell was i? maybe my case is different since im just a special case all over....like, i wasnt your typical 20 year old. I was a lost addicted kid. Not aware of self and who I was.....so thank goodness I wasnt involved in any relationships right? well relationships in what they are....i was involved, in some sort of relationship. But yeah...I was 20, trying to go through my felony reduced to a misdemeanor, that alone is a maturing experience...well to me it was. ask me if i caught anything after that ordeal....making all the mistakes one can make when youre so lost like that..the only thing I did know is that i was aware of my creativity. My sense of desire, art, music....maybe my senses were overstimulated..and i had all the time in the world too make everything out of them. From sketches, digital collages, beats, songs, lyrics...I was definitely expressing, who I was and what I felt. I was IN TUNE! with emotions that were waaaay more intense than Ive ever felt before. Maybe because of all that overload with emotions, is why I can better deal with them now. I am not my relationship (though it is the greatest relationship Ive ever been blessed with, with the opposite sex) so I know who i am outside of it. With or without it. That takes a lot. I think the relationship i have with myself finally began to develop at the end of that year..because thanks to that criminal charge, i was spending a lot of time by myself....but truly it wasnt until 2005 that I finally came to grasp with the love I have for myself. yeah....early 20's were Interesting! now, at my later twenties, things are finally starting to be, less intense, less dramatic, more fulfilling, peaceful and WORTH IT! You truly cant get better without being worse..yeah.

songs of the week

1. I Want to Be Adored - The Raveonettes
2. Undertow - Warpaint
3. White Diamonds - Friendly Fires
4. Paris - Friendly Fires
5. Speakers on Blast - Skyzoo
6. Some Cut - Trillville ( yeah!!)