and then, it just didn't affect me anymore....I finally managed to only care about what I want....and only.

feeling: like everything just feels blissful and sweet because I jus finally stopped caring about what anyone besides myself thinks.....I waited too long for all the wrong things, when all I got was unappreciation and indecisiveness about how someone would want to have me in their life? .......after I felt so much and hoped for what?.....yea, attention is not expensive at all.....and I jus know when to stop trying and hoping when I shouldn't b doing that to begin with. Just enjoy yourselves. That's the only way that u can get through life after getting heartbroken and dissapointed......just take things as they go....maybe it will stay maybe it won't...just enjoy it....be passionate when it counts.....otherwise, its just met with dissapointment. Word. Its like I was finally able to put myself in their shoes....and realized that its a lot easier to just go with the flow and not dig deep into anything....because when its really going to b worth it, this whole "icebox" feeling will mos def b dissolved. It is what it is. Yet it feels so rejuvinating.....oh yes it does.