What to do

I have a confession to make. I'm simply not happy with the job that I have. I do however, have far too many financial dependences that keep me tied to this. Including a car loan that is far too much for anyone living outside of free housing. I seriously just want to cry out of frustration sometimes. I chose to be here. I want to be with the man that I love. But I am sacrificing my happiness with what I do every day as a job. This is such a catch 22. There's not much of a way out. Although if I continue to feel like I'm stuck, I won't be making it better. And to find a decent job that will pay anything close to what I make now is beyond hard to find. Because I've been looking. It's like "what have I done?" But only because on days like this I let it over shadow what is truly my happiness: Life with Him. Yeah.