Where was I at when I was 20?

2003 -yeah just 7 years ago, (7! wtf) but where the hell was I and who the hell was i? maybe my case is different since im just a special case all over....like, i wasnt your typical 20 year old. I was a lost addicted kid. Not aware of self and who I was.....so thank goodness I wasnt involved in any relationships right? well relationships in what they are....i was involved, in some sort of relationship. But yeah...I was 20, trying to go through my felony reduced to a misdemeanor, that alone is a maturing experience...well to me it was. ask me if i caught anything after that ordeal....making all the mistakes one can make when youre so lost like that..the only thing I did know is that i was aware of my creativity. My sense of desire, art, music....maybe my senses were overstimulated..and i had all the time in the world too make everything out of them. From sketches, digital collages, beats, songs, lyrics...I was definitely expressing, who I was and what I felt. I was IN TUNE! with emotions that were waaaay more intense than Ive ever felt before. Maybe because of all that overload with emotions, is why I can better deal with them now. I am not my relationship (though it is the greatest relationship Ive ever been blessed with, with the opposite sex) so I know who i am outside of it. With or without it. That takes a lot. I think the relationship i have with myself finally began to develop at the end of that year..because thanks to that criminal charge, i was spending a lot of time by myself....but truly it wasnt until 2005 that I finally came to grasp with the love I have for myself. yeah....early 20's were Interesting! now, at my later twenties, things are finally starting to be, less intense, less dramatic, more fulfilling, peaceful and WORTH IT! You truly cant get better without being worse..yeah.