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Do notice that my last posts are titled with much emotion! It took me to make a blog for school to get me to come back and update my blogs! Geez. So yeah, I gave school a shot. This is now my second term. And boy am I questioning whether I will continue to stop. Verizon is prepaying my courses, thats like $1300 each class since it's all online schooling...and If I don't succeed with at least getting a C in class, Verizon will charge me the money back! Yikes! I have a 3.8 GPA as of now, so no worries,but the motivation is not the same! I chose substance abuse counseling...and I'm towards the end of my intro to psych class and it's all about neuroscience...and I'm taken back by all the terminology! Anyway, what keeps me going is a) I want to also have a degree that I can hang on the wall of my mom's house that accompanies my sister's and my brother's. b) How am I going to teach my kids that advanced education is good if I can't be proof of it? c) Martin, he asked me to go back to school because he knows I'm a genius, a lazy genius. d) I really like learning about substance abuse. You know, I have more than enough first hand experience in what it does..but I want to know why it does and why we do. Yeah. If all goes on course, I will be done by 2015 with a bachelors....I am planning on getting pregnant at the very end of 2013...which means that time line might not work in my favor. I really don't think I want to experience my first pregnancy with the stress of taking classes, writing papers and taking quizes. On top of making quotas and making sure I'm hitting at least over a $1000 on commissions every month. I rely on that money to pay for my half of the mortgage and my car payment. Car payment will be done by November of 2014. Now do you see why I can't get knocked up until the end of '13? Duh, I can't just afford it yet. haha. Martin and I have bills. We make too much money to not qualify for assistance, unlike every other woman or teenage girl in South Texas that uses their lone star card to purchase junk food at the convenience store. Hard work equals no help :) Lesson learned. Have I updated that Martin and I are now home owners? And land owners???? Yeeeeeaaah!!!! At the end of March we closed on an awesome house on 9 acres out in the country, not too far from city life. Just what we always wanted. Because of that house is why I have not been able to fly to Arizona to visit my fam since yesterday. All the savings went to the house..and I'm just grateful to be here :) By the way, we have been working on making this place into a mini stronghold in the event of a zombie apocolypse. That is just a given. Nite.