All I Ask.....

$1 not $2 tips at open bar
keep it that way
there's nothing wrong with partying
keeps the drinks going

who's that?
is that your girl? you with her
she looks like everyone else here

c'mon
they're not like me
(that's a shame)
baby they're not like me
and anyway you know it's not easy
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no


c'mon it's not like me
and anyway you know they're not like me (so what's up)
and baby you know it's not easy (uh huh)
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no (got a light y'all?)

pardon my composure
saw ya
had to approach ya, move closer
confidence or the courtesy of the mamosas framed perfect
like a picture with the sharpest image
from the lips of a cherub cherry red
henny breth
let me guess

queens is ur area
see jean can read by the lean
and the tilt of the cap in your drink, I'll be filling that
I need some good conversation
love
these hood rats be making up the game
plus they ain't even fully developed
insane

see if we could start a challenge
and balance most delicate matters
involving plans
including sitting in carriages
wait
too far
maybe we could shoot a little hoop
or just chill on my stoop
I don't like a lot of hoop-la

me and you sedude deuces and spike juices
and stove some backwards roll backwards
and keep it that good
so write your name
oldschool
pen on the back
there was a good time tomorrow
I don't stall
Holla Back

C'mon it's not like me
and anyway you know they're not like me (so what's up)
and baby you know it's not easy (uh huh)
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no (got a light y'all?)


You see I walk up different on em
Talk slang often
Bought dinner on dutch
while most women do the wallet clutch

Never ask the wrong question
Make jokes interestin
Wear more clothes and let their eyes do the undressin
A little sarcasm and tar
Argue about reasonable doubt and Illmatic
Car traffic iron
We can walk in summer laughing
Cry when they giggle
splitsizing and curse
the magic that's in between us boy

Jean a fiend for the love-feeling
we crush dreamin and after lush green
and a sun shinin and enough beach for a lifetime
or maybe that's just mine

poppin in at hathaway
wandering gay and rewind
play a little chess strip
see but nothing
I read a lot
beam you a little sixteen or something
I cook well
sip on drinks and just chill
a malt liquor and MOP
tell me what you feel

C'mon it's not like me
and anyway you know they're not like me (so what's up)
and baby you know it's not easy (uh huh)
just to come across a girl like jean
oh no (got a light y'all?)

See we could be for life even
for nights freed and heavy and steaming
from polite greetins to late at night face smashin
taste passion and race plays baggage
my faith placed back in maybe marriage
I hate slackers
Jean love the chillin
leg out, sometimes stick out

We'll find an open bar
I'm not impressed by payouts or starters
Play out your cards
We can splay out on the top of cars
And pick the constallations
While playing the Best of Debarge

Making me not agreein
Patience is all I'm needing
Face it, I'm not your average girl
Or close to it even
Most original and trance like a physical stance
I've got a lot
but we could chill
It's all I ask

Are You DOWN?

  "Not Like Me" from Jean Grae's   'This Week' album.

Life thru video part 1.

 The I want You Phase

He asked me

  
    He wrote me, and asked me to give him my heart, my all as he wanted nothing more in this world than to give me his in return. I have been waiting since the day that we met, May 21st 2004, to hear those words from him. I just never really thought it would happen.Now that it has.....it's a mixture of emotions. I have been so cold and emotionless since Ernie and is it possible that this might be what changes that? I love Luis with all my heart, I always have.Where he is at though, I can't hold against him to why I should or shouldn't...it's more the where he will be once he leaves that place. One thing is mail correspondence which is always full of optimism, romance and well wishing. He says that he has finally grown up to where he knows that this is the moment that he believes is the one meant for Us finally. Come August, I will be able to find a more solid understanding of where this will lead. One thing that I have learned, and thanks to Ernie, is to have my expectations and standards set. And never settle for less. I have informed Luis of this as well. So like I said, only time and his choices and actions will tell. This is definitely something that was truly unexpected, to say the least. But then again, it always is when it comes to this.

The One in the middle

 

  

my Heart

Back To Black

Part 2. At least this time, I didnt let it get me like that. I'm not emotinally available, and I'm grateful 4 it.

Artist: Amy Winehouse
Album: Back to Black
Title: Back to Black

He left no time to regret
Kept his dick wet
With his same old safe bet
Me and my head high
And my tears dry
Get on without my guy
You went back to what you knew
So far removed from all that we went through
And I tread a troubled track
My odds are stacked
I'll go back to black

We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to.....

I go back to us

I love you much
It's not enough
You love blow and I love puff
And life is like a pipe
And I'm a tiny penny rolling up the walls inside

We only said goodbye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to

Black, black, black, black, black, black, black,
I go back to
I go back to

We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to


We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to black

The Game is not on that level -UPDATED

So I was doing some random music news browsing and I found this on mtvnews.com. I couldnt help it but to speak on it. The Game spent a week in county jail and upon his eeeeearly release, he hit the studio and compared that feeling to what Pac went through when Suge Bailed him out of state prison after 11 months of incarceration (for some bullshit that we all know was completely overdone and unnecesary regarding the verdict.) and went right into the studio and pretty much remained there for the last months of his life.They even stated that Pac recorded "California Love" that same night he was released when according to his book Ressurrection, he actually wrote and recorded "Ambitionz Az a Ridah" the same afternoon that he came back to Cali with Suge once he got out.
 Alright, I'm sure there's hundreds that have all had a similar experience as to what Pac went through when 
he was released because that's just what happens, you get released from incarceration. It's the BEST DAMN feeling in the world if you have found urself to be in that spot. I have and the first thing I did when I got released after the last part of my 90 with 60 actual served sentence back in '05 was bump some Pac and just thank God that I was breathing fresh outdoor air. But dude, for The Game to compare his 8 day stint for what I think was just his still immature and arrogant antics of pulling out a gun during a game of basketball on a park court and threatening to kill some dude......to what actually went on with Pac and him actually doing 11 months in a state prison in NY for something that was just too vague to actually believe but due to his public role and stature at the time with his music and views on the government, yea I think he was set up and shipped out for a min to

better benefit the government than that broad that accused his friends and him of sexual abuse. Anyway, Game got let off easily for what he was  for damn sure guilty of doing, and manages to publicly compare himself to Pac. Never on that level. He's Wescoast yea he is, but that's all he is, a rapper. He's not an MC, he's not a poet, he's not Pac, or even close on that remarkable human being to exist level. It's just one of those things that he should have kept to himself. 
don't make it a publisized moment where you compare yourself  to something that is not meant to be in your reach honestly. The Game has good tracks, mainly thanks to the Dr., but he has yet to actually evolve into something greater than just some dude that went through typical shit living in Compton and has recorded some albums that only depict that lifestyle that honestly, does not translate on that almost universal yet very personal level that Pac's music did. I think Game has everything in his reach to make Great things of not just himself, but in hip hop. He needs to evolve from rap. And stop comparing himself to Pac. Nobody in this lifetime will be even close to what Pac still is. Alright I'm done. I just couldnt help but 2 express a feeling right....lates. oh yea, here's the article.


Mar 18 2008 5:15 PM EDT
Game Headed Straight To Studio After Leaving Jail To Make 'Inspirational' Track, 'Big Dreams,' With Cool & Dre

'It's like when 'Pac came outta prison and did 'California Love' that same night,' Dre says.
By Jayson Rodriguez
The Game wasted no time getting to the studio after his exit from prison last week.
On Wednesday night, the California rapper recorded the Cool & Dre-produced "Big Dreams," the first single from his upcoming album, L.A.X., due in June. By the weekend, the track was mixed and leaked to the Web.
"Right now, he's like 'Pac," Dre told MTV News the day after the track was recorded. "It's like when 'Pac came outta prison and did 'California Love' that same night.
"Lyrically, he's somewhere else right now," the producer added.
On the pulsating number, Game's forceful flow and sharp tongue attack the beat.
"Irv Gotti know I'mma murderer/ Half of the n---as beefing with me I never heard of them/ If I was the old me I would murder them/ Matter fact, if I was the old me, I would Curtis them," he spits.
Dre said he and Cool managed to work on two other tracks, "Make the World Go 'Round" and "Red Magic," during their session.
"When he was going to jail ... he said he didn't know how long he's gonna be going in for," Dre explained. "But he was like, 'When I come out, I'm ready to go.' So the day he got out, we got the phone call, like, 'Yo, come to L.A. right now.' So me and Cool jumped on the plane."
Game ended up doing only eight days of a scheduled 60-day jail sentence. The rapper was released March 9 from the Twin Towers Correctional Facility in California due to overpopulation. He was jailed because of an incident last year when the rapper threatened another man during a pickup basketball game and was found to have a firearm in a school zone.
His attorney confirmed his release to several media outlets, but his management camp issued a statement claiming the rapper had instead been transferred to another facility. A representative with the prison confirmed Game's release to MTV News.


  update 3/25/008 4:25pm
  I had read this article in XXL years ago when the issue celebrated Pac's "ALL EYEZ ON ME" album's anniverssary. They interviewed the key roles in the making of that album like Daz, Kurupt, Johnny J, Nate Dogg, Richie Rich and other producers that witnessed the makings and had them do commentary for every track. This is what they said about "Ambitonz as a ridah...."
 
"Ambitionz Az A Ridah" Produced by Dat Nigga Daz

Kurupt: First day he came home, "Ambitionz Az A Ridah"-that was the first record that he did. Suge brought him in. The word went through the office that 'Pac was home. Everybody [who was] at the studio at that time was up there. I came a little bit later, and when i came, Daz already had the beat started. 'Pac wasn't in the studio for any more than 45 minutes before he had his first verse done and laid. that fast. He didn't even wanna chill; all he wanted to do was get on the mic. Whatever day he landed in Los Angeles, two hours after he landed, he had his first verse laid.

Dave Aron: That's the first song I ever did with 2pac. The day he got out of jail, he didn't go to the clubs. He didn't go try to meet women. He went straight to the studio like he was on a mission, and he recorded "Ambitionz Az A Ridah" and "I ain't Mad At Cha." 2pac came in, and he was fresh out of jail. I seen them give him his Death Row Medallion that same night. And then he came right in. He was ready to go. He was very hyped, very focused, a lot of energy-mad energy. And you could tell he was really one a mission. He really had a real vision of what was going on, and he wanted to get a lot done in that short amount of time.

Daz: The idea came from the me sampling Pee Wee Herman. So if you listen to Pee Wee Herman [the Champs' "Tequila"], I just put the gangsta twist on it. I gave it to 'Pac. Came back to the studio, and it was done.

A little more now

listening to: "Falling away with you" by Muse