Wonder what kind

Of little girl that likes these will be when she grows up.....

Top 4 songs of all time..w/possible 5th

1. Above the Clouds - GangStarr feat Inspectah Deck

2. Two Can Win - JDilla

3. Starlight - Muse

4. Never had a friend Like Me (tied with) FAME - by 2PAC

5. "A Little Bit" by Drake feat Lykke Li is sooo the contender for 5th spot

Currently : Relaxing in my hotel room in Monterey, Cali....just soaking up some sweetness, and clarity

Lyrically, so true

I first fell in love with the beat to this song...and like all those that start feeling all these damn emotions stirred by the progress of falling for someone....I finally payed attention to the lyrics especially when I was feelin a little blue....like when you have that doubt of how trusting with your heart should you be and how soon.....because sometimes too soon, will ruin it....because I can't throw it all out on the table if he isn't doing the same thing...and right now we're not phisically capable of giving it the chance it deserves because we're so far away....so the distance is a blessing and a curse...once we're both in the same place...at the same time...for the long run....this will all have felt worth it. All I can do now, is keep my side of this honest, loyal and appreciative.....why would I want to fuck up a chance that you don't get everyday.....well with someone that actually gives you the desire and want to make life soo much better by being together...because this person seems and feels like they would be worth it....why.....we're both very in tune with our self love...enough to not make the mistake of giving our love away to someone that doesn't even have that much self love for themselves.....so it's just sooo different. Like how much faith and confidence do you have in yourself in knowing what you're capable of doing the greatest things in life.....and how unpredictable everything would be yet, you would definitely endure more positive than negative because you're not out to cause any hurt because it would be like hurting yourself.....so now the whole trick that lies in this right now...is the letting go of doubts, letting go of OUR PASTS...including the people....and just trusting into going all in.....and I have moments where I just want to go all in already...but....ignorance is bliss, and I just can't do that so the reality checks I get sometimes make me sad, make me think too much to not care, and sincerely, despite all that, I stay in.....because like I've said......the things in life that you want, and aren't the easiest to get...and actually appreciate and grow to better because of......are the ones worth all of it. And Martin and I have no doubt, been the uneasiest elements to actually put together since the day we met 2 years ago......so we'll see. All i want is him. And he says all he wants is me. I hope we want it bad. Because I know it would be soo much more than we've ever would have thought.........I'm just sayin....anyway....here are the lyrics that are just sooo true to us.....enjoy....


"A Little Bit" by Drake and Lykke Li
(feat. Lykke Li)

[Lykke Li:]
Hands down
I'm too proud, for love
But with eyes shut
It's you I'm thinking of

[Drake:]
But how we move from A to B it can't be up to me
Cause you don't know
Who I was before you
Basically to see a change in me
I'd be losing, so I just ignore you, yeah
Oh oho
But your on my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind
Oh oho
But maybe in time, in time, in time
I'll tell you

[Chorus:]
A little bit, a little bit
A little bit in love with you
I guess that I'm a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you
Oh oho

[Drake:]
I know you don't break their hearts
But it's you I wanna take apart
And I will never ever be the first, to say it
But still I they know I ah ah ah

[Lykke Li:]
I would do it
Push a button
Pull a trigger
Climb a mountain
Jump off a cliff
Cause you know baby I love you love you
A little bit

I would do it
You'd say it
You'd mean it
I would let you do it
It was you and I and I only
Ha hm

I think I'm a little bit
Little bit
A little bit in love with you
But only if you're a little bit
Little bit
Little bit
In lalalala love with me

Drake:]
I hope they never find out
What they already know, know, know
As soon as it's official
We'll have to let it go, go, go
So we don't confirm the fling
Keep avoiding all the questions
You'll get teased for many things
I'm just scared to learn a lesson

The pressures on
Both hearts beat like a metronon
Both n'sync like a justin song
Feels so right but it's just soo wrong
I wonder where my world 'bout
Where niggas said I know, tryna talk my girl out
And her friends say I ain't the one to go for
She just get jealous cause you always get approached more
Oh well tell her fall back caught up in some more shit tell her call back
Tell her get a man that ain't cheating on her ass
With a girl that I know yeah tell her all that, that
And as for you I think I know your the one
The closest I've come
I'm probably...

A little bit
A little bit
A little bit in love with you
I guess that I'm a little bit
A little bit
A little bit
A little bit in love with you
Oh oho
Lalalala love with me
Oh oho, oh oho

Oh blockhead

One of my fave producers did an online interview about what he thinks is funny, so I had to reprint his #3 reason....am I the only one that laughs at this? Hahahahahaha....

#3 Hulk Hogan's rap album is amazing. It's all about taking vitamins and saying your prayers. There's one song called "When the hulkster goes to heaven" about his friend that died in the ring. While his heart was in the right place , it basically becomes a song about how the guy was a great hulkamaniac…and he died.
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The end is the funniest ever

So far so gone

Man o man he keeps having bad dreams about me. I wonder if the more it happens, will it either begin to convince him to feel otherwise about me or will it just push me away. I hope neither happens. I want him so much. I am feeling like I'm drowning being so far away from him. That's why I'm trying to do as much as I can in regards to moving closer. I just don't know where I would be moving to. Because he's still unsure about where he wants to be or where he could be if all goes through with his possible job op. Long ago I broke everything and anything I had with anyone else because all I want is him. And I wasn't about to mess up my own chances. But with any good thing comes all the doubt in the world as well. I mean it's natural. I guess. We have both gone through more than our share with relationships gone bad and I feel like we have both grown from that to where we can enjoy and make
the best of what we can have. But the distance is killing us if it stays this way. Even though neither one of us could be doing anything to ruin it, the little doubt that lingers from anything past haunts enough sometimes. Or wears you out. But I'm refusing to budge. I have to stay positive because I won't give up so easy especially since I haven't brought this bad business into what I have with him and that's why early on I cut all ties with anything lingering with any other person. What matters to me is him and now. And my own past experiences haunt me in forms of people just changing the way the feel about me. One day they adore me and the next they just don't feel anything. So how do you think I feel about when I start to have way strong feelings like the ones I have for him? I get scared, and sometimes it's so sad that I have to almost keep myself prepared to have to just let go
of all feelings because of the fear that he might just change his mind and heart about me. Even though that hasn't changed since we started talking again in January.....and my feelings haven't changed for him and they only get stronger and that makes it impossible for me to do anything to hurt him or this....... I swear I'm just going to leave this place one day real soon and just go to Texas. The longer this goes to where I'm trying to prepare moving in the best way possible and responsibly, the more frustrating and the sadder I get about how distance affects us.......I just can't let it get me down. Not even a little bit.

DJ hero!!!!!

Bring it on!!!!! Hella stoked!!!!!

ay-Z and Eminem have teamed up for the upcoming release of DJ Hero to provide the video game with exclusive content and work behind-the-scenes. Both rappers will help provide a rap twist to the urban-based game. A limited edition comes with the rappers' exclusive new greatest-hits CDs, possibly including previously unreleased tracks, plus an advanced version of the controller, a DJ stand and metal traveling case. Jay-Z and Eminem will serve as consultants to Activision and the game's developer, FreeStyleGames. The complete list of tracks the rappers are providing is still being worked out. Jay-Z plans on including "Izzo (H.O.V.A.)" and "Dirt Off Your Shoulder" for sure. Also possible: tracks from his in-the-works Blueprint 3 album. (USA Today) Jigga has confirmed his role with the upcoming project. "I have a ton of content, I just need the pipeline," Jay said in an interview. "I love
the freedom of [DJ Hero]. I could wake up tomorrow morning with the idea for a song and call the guys at Activision and start working on getting it out...You can actually get lost [playing]." (Woooha) Em also dished out a few details revolving around the release. "I don't want to give away any surprises yet," he said in an e-mail interview. "DJ Hero will include my music, and I'll be providing additional material as downloadable content by the end of the year...This is a game I can see myself actually playing. DJ'ing is fundamental to rap music, so it's a great fit." (Rap Radar) In addition to providing fans with music by 50 Cent, N.E.R.D., KRS-One, Beastie Boys and more, players will take the role of an actual deejay. DJ Hero has a fine disc jockey pedigree, with contributions from DJ Shadow, mash-up guru DJ Z-Trip and plane-crash survivor DJ AM. Players will "utilize and master
various DJ techniques including scratching, blending, cross fading and sampling," according to a press release, "leaving room for creative expression with a variety of effects and player-chosen samples and scratches". Presumably, they will also learn how to ruin a party with bad tunes. But if spinning records gets too boring, DJ Hero has some other options. You can, for instance, ignore all that "DJ" stuff and have an MC battle using the game's microphone controller ? or even play guitar using your Guitar Hero controller. (Guardian News) DJ Hero is reportedly set to be released next fall.
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Listening to: "Discipline" by GangStarr

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