I'm still So much more

Than you're used to.yeah, sheer happiness in being me and loving everything about it. Like I said, its such a "Me,Myself, and I" moment. Word to beyonce.

my Me, Myself and I moment

fuck this!

I can't believe he broke my heart again. He started talking to his tweaker ass ex girlfriend who is by the way still on meth right now and he's jus playing me along. I gave it my all.I wanted nothing more than him in my life. He got upset when I told him that I could feel that he wasn't paying attention to me like he was distracted and it was all true. All I have is love for him and I believe so much in him and this is what happens? I told him I was vulnerable around him cos I trust him and this is what he does with my trust. Completely breaks my heart. Telling me he wants to marry me and have kids with me and I believed him. Now I'm sure he is all involved with that female who I know very well and I know the people that she knows or associates with even where she's at now and what she is up to and I'm sure she is playing him with lies cos I know who she is with now. He wants her and that's what it is I'm sure. He never made it about us. Just great.

With You

Because u will always have my heart.

Lauryn Hill - I Gotta Find Peace of Mind [MTV Unplugged]

As detailed as it can get with how I feel about him. My heart.

work in progress

um yea, about that.....

So I have no regret about my last posting....however, I do have a better realization now about where I stand regarding that.More like a wake up call sooner than later. Nothing bad...just something thàt now gives me more clarity on how he feels and that gives me a better perspective on everything including how to handle things....its bittersweet. I love him more than anything and I knew that us being together was going to be nothing easy. Especially with the distance between us.which can be either a blessing or a curse....I'm hoping blessing since he needs his space right now to do what he needs to do....and that gives me my own space to have to just keep on with everything that I do and keeps me happy with myslef. So its not what I thought it would be, but it doesn't necessarily take my optism away.